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Okay. That's it.
No more death fics for me. None. Not a one. *growls* The last one I read had me a blue funk for two days. Two whole days, I tell you! Over fictional characters. *sigh*
So you'd think I'd have learned my lesson, ne?
So now I'm sitting here at work writing out this entry to post later (which would be now obviously) and I keep feeling little moments of sadness at odd times. I'd stop what I was doing, realizing my mind was wandering towards the fic I read last night. Now, don't get me wrong, this fic by Emma Grant (emmagrant01) was bloody fantastic but some of the characters had died previous to the current events in the fic. And so that's what kept popping into my head at odd times today.
So, that's it. No more deathfics. Although this story technically wasn't a deathfic, the character death in general is apparently enough to mess with my mind. *sigh* I so don't wanna know what this says about my grasp on reality (tentative at best anyway) and my ability to handle death (what ability?)
Anyway, really had to get that off my chest. On the other hand, I feel pretty damn good for only getting three hours of sleep last night (i told you it was a darn good fic!).
And so now it's almost time for my rp pals to come online and play. Tonight I would like to devote my full attention to rp-ing but sometimes I get distracted. Yanno, fics to read, fics to write (ack! deadline for one contest in three days!), all that HTML/CSS I want to learn, email and lj stuff...
Man, if only my RL were as busy as the time I spend on the computer...geez, I'm soooo pathetic...
But happy. Well, for the most part anyways.
And that's what counts, ne?
No more death fics for me. None. Not a one. *growls* The last one I read had me a blue funk for two days. Two whole days, I tell you! Over fictional characters. *sigh*
So you'd think I'd have learned my lesson, ne?
So now I'm sitting here at work writing out this entry to post later (which would be now obviously) and I keep feeling little moments of sadness at odd times. I'd stop what I was doing, realizing my mind was wandering towards the fic I read last night. Now, don't get me wrong, this fic by Emma Grant (emmagrant01) was bloody fantastic but some of the characters had died previous to the current events in the fic. And so that's what kept popping into my head at odd times today.
So, that's it. No more deathfics. Although this story technically wasn't a deathfic, the character death in general is apparently enough to mess with my mind. *sigh* I so don't wanna know what this says about my grasp on reality (tentative at best anyway) and my ability to handle death (what ability?)
Anyway, really had to get that off my chest. On the other hand, I feel pretty damn good for only getting three hours of sleep last night (i told you it was a darn good fic!).
And so now it's almost time for my rp pals to come online and play. Tonight I would like to devote my full attention to rp-ing but sometimes I get distracted. Yanno, fics to read, fics to write (ack! deadline for one contest in three days!), all that HTML/CSS I want to learn, email and lj stuff...
Man, if only my RL were as busy as the time I spend on the computer...geez, I'm soooo pathetic...
But happy. Well, for the most part anyways.
And that's what counts, ne?
