well, well...

Cho Hakkai


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...still spending too much time on lj...

how you remind me...

this post is going to consist of two parts...and i apologize if it gets a bit lengthy...

Part One
well, since i discovered yaoi, i have done everything i can to get my hands on as much as possible (and still do) and my favorite fanfic has become the weiss kreuz stories (yohjixaya - of course!)...this is due to the incredible writings of people like scribblemoose, paxnirvana and hoardes of others whom i now have bookmarked on my 'puter....the thing is...i have gotten so caught up in these two that odd things during the day remind me of them...for instance: today i was listening to Sarah McLachlan's Afterglow and i have to say that the whole song "Fallen" screams Yohji and Aya...the tone, the lyrics...just everything...and for some reason Yohji came to mind when i heard this...

If I had the chance to love/I would not hesitate/
To tell you all the things I never said before/
Don't tell me it's too late/Cause I've relied on my illusion/
To keep me warm at night/And I've denied in my capacity to love/
But I am willing to give up this fight....

a couple of lines preceding this it goes:

Been up all night drinking to drown my sorrows down

...yep there's my Yohji

Additional lyrics can be found in the discography section here. Someone needs to write this songfic 'cuz i don't think i can handle it.

Part Two
well, the second part of this entry has to do with the fact that i actually like yaoi...for some reason some part of me thinks that should be wrong...and that feeling dredges up the dozen or more things that i have liked over the years that most people i knew would have found strange...this would be the main reason i tend to spend long periods of time by myself...'cuz i could never really find others that shared these same interests...and although many of the people around me still don't know alot of that 'strange' stuff i like, i am happy to have found the community of people here that do not seem to mind and even like the same things as me...

anyway, that really isn't what i wanted to focus on for this section...now, i happen to absolutely adore the author Laurell K. Hamilton and her alter ego Anita Blake...Anita is the ultimate female icon to me...she's tough, she takes shit from no one, doesn't hesitate to protect herself (mostly) but she's still human enough to have relationship problems...and she had totally kick@$$ abilities, and can we say surrounded by tons on nummy, beautiful bishies *feels faint* (reminds me i need to commission a piece from pl nunn on an idea i came up with...anyway)...on to what i really wanted to share with you....

the author, mrs. hamilton, wrote a piece in her blog about the herd, being a part of it, not being a part of it, and finding your rightful place in or out of it...i have to say, it was really inspiring in regards to finding your true self and believing in it...it is way too long to fit here, but you can read the entry by going here and reading the January 11th entry. I highly recommend reading this and would love to talk with anyone about what they think of it...or anything, actually....

all right....wheeeeeew....i am done for now....i hope...so sorry for the length